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one of my dearest friends way back in hiskul invited me to celebrate her 20th birthday with her other friends last saturday night. i was the first and 'only' hiskul friend to come, plus more than a dozen of her college friend! at first, i thought it would be better for me to just make some conniving since i'm good at that. and this girl even told her mom that i am one fat anti-social when i'm sober. no no not just to her mom, to the rest of the guys. and so, everybody tries to make a conversation with me. in general, they weren't that interesting though. or maybe, that's just me?

an hour later, two of my other hiskul friends came in. i felt so blessed that very moment. the two have come to rescue me from the social insecurities and scheming that's been badly going on in my head. however, to sum it up, the party was a bit of a blast. 'a bit' ? i believe that no one should be crying in a party, especially the celebrant. ryt? oops, maybe i just spoiled out something.

 the first minutes as we sat in the sole round drinking table for fifteen, everybody is eyeing on everyone. me? i was thinking that some of them do think they're really cool. they were like smoking, plus the make up that one girl wears and murmuring through the sound of the music showing us all that 'hey, i memorized these cool songs!'  i said, "what a waste."

yeah, maybe i am just a little bit bored with what's really going on. not just during the party, but the life i'm living. talk about having the same old routines... i was thinking that probably, why i get redundancy with living life, is because of school. i only got one more year. definitely, after that, i get to have a better life. it's gonna be so much fun. but for now, we have to make sacrifices for our parents to give life to their dreams.

yeah right! onad did it again.