currently : making realities sink...

the first school week for this hot summer term brings me to this adjective called 'ngarag'. you guys should know that you cannot just have both worlds. what am i trying to say is that we cannot have all that we wanted. such a cliché! things aren't making me feel good nowadays. i want to go back to a time and space where i can just groove with things. i can just dance with the life that God offered me; a life in which His funny surprises caught me off guard. no doubt, God has so many funny ideas in His pocket.

what do you think are the rules that we really have to follow? are these the things that mom and dad taught us when we were young? or is it the lessons we learned on our own? sometimes, these things do contradict.

moving on...

I love a toilet that flushes with great strength and purpose. it motivates me to eat more and live life. talk about more weird stories, i'm frightened about the latest terrorist scare going on. i flipped from bbc to cnn and both have news regarding only terrorist knows what. and since these motherfu**ers are back, the security tightens. security guards around the metro, whether in or out of malls, have become really scary too. they would subconsciously touch your lower half. what makes it interesting (aww did i just say interesting), is when they grip around your thigh with full force downwards. whew! that's a scary thought. me? hitting it high with the sekyo? ewwww!

one last, in life we do not choose someone over the other. we choose a life that makes us better. as i said, we cannot have both. if we live a perfect life together with the people who happens to be perfect for us, then there is no need to believe. there is no reason. there is a confusion. but for me, i'll just get by. there is nothing to do.